You know when you're a little girl on Christmas Eve, and you're so excited that you feel jittery and no matter how much you try, you can't sleep? I was like that last nigh. I went a week without weighing myself. I've never been able to do that. What else did you ask? I also was binge free all week! Another record. So i was jittery, excited and nervous last night, as i tried to sleep. Is that really sad..?
Then woke up at 8am, had pee, ran down the stairs to my present (or my scales), set them up and... paused. I couldn't get on the bloody things. Suddenly i was terrified of the number i would see. Yes, i realise that's bad. Finally i managed to hop on, open my eyes, release my held breath and look down. 134lbs! That's 4lbs in a week. Not as great as i had hoped, but, seeing as i have done no exercise this week and still managed to lose weight. I'm pretty happy now.
Although after today, i'm pretty sure i'm up a pound.. Easter Sunday you beautiful thing! Being able to eat chocolate without judgmental eyes? Brilliant. I did go from 'cheat day' into 'binge mode', but i don't actually care. I haven't gone over 800 calories once this week, so i feel i deserved a good binge. Plus eating normally (if slightly more than normally..) increases the metabolism and a needed boost, from the week of restricting!
TMI WARNING: Binging on carbohydrate loaded foods.. It moves things along in the err, bowel region. Basically, i've had two good umm experiences in the toilet area, within an hour..
Needless to say i am in a happy mood, and am hoping to be a maximum of 131lbs next Sunday. I am in brilliant spirits! Hopefully everyone is as happy as i am.
M x
Aw I remember that excited feeling when you know you've behaved so well and your about to jump on the scale!! Hopefully I'll be feeling that soon :D
ReplyDeleteI love how open you are about your um poops hahaha! I notice the exact thing you do! SUch an awkward topic but you can tell so much by what comes out that end lol...
Glad your doing so well very proud of you!!!