Yesterday i woke up in a "I hate everyone" type of mood. Anything could have put me in floods of tears. I held out until my mum forced me into her car and took me to a beautiful little town called Tintern. I remember having a bounty bar, a hob nob biscuit and a cream tea with all the trimmings (veganism has apparently left me..), and then i had half a pot of Moroccan hummus. I can't remember if i had anything else..
Today was the worst. It all started when me and my dad had an argument which resulted in him telling me "Piss off!" Which i quite happily did. I marched over to my mums and just crashed in her spare room. Are you ready for the onset of food? Prepare yourself! I think i'm just gonna bullet point it instead:
- Slice of thick white toast and jam
- Caramel Machiato
- 3 homemade scones with jam
- A mini Pizza
- 2 portions of pasta with chilli sauce and meatballs
- 2/3rd of a packet of jam and cream mini rolls
- Large pot of sour cream and onion pringles
- 2 Twirls
- A bottle of Bulmers pear cider
Granted, the last five items were my dads way of apologising to me. But i don't know why i ate all of it at once. I feel like a blob. Whats worse is that in May i'm going to Greece for a week (might decide to stay out there), and i have to buy new summer clothes and a bikini. And i'm desperate to buy size 8 shorts that won't be even slightly tight.
On another note, isn't it funny how you can read someones blog and instantly feel like you connect with them as a person? And feel like if we had met in another lifetime we would have been the best of chums. Well obviously, that can't be but i will direct you to her blog http://blackbook-115.blogspot.co.uk/ (Note: Gabrielle, if you wish for me to take this link down, then just send me a quick message or just comment, and i will do so without hesitation).
Anyway that's it for tonight. Wait! I forgot to say, after 3 days of bingeing i now weigh 136lbs. I'm sure that number will have increased by the time i wake up tomorrow. And finally, leaving on that pretty bum note..
Goodnight!
Mx
I usually feel better after a binge (strangely) cause I know what I really want and how I'm gonna do it. I have a rush of motivation and usually use it as a fresh start. I would love to be in a size 8 right now, it's my magic number, I need to buy summer clothes and I'm holding off so I can get as near to that size as I can.
ReplyDeleteGood luck for today <3
Xxx
I know what you mean, in a way bingeing gives you leverage to be good throughout the weeks because you've eaten everything you could possibly want.. If that makes sense? I used to feel like that all the time. Now it's just guilt.
ReplyDeleteThere is something about size 8 that's extremely appealing i think, to most people. Hoping you can achieve success Jen! xx