Ramblings of an Exhausted Mind

It's now 3:25am as i write this. I have been led in bed, wrapped in a cocoon of cosiness, yet i can't sleep. My mind is all scattered. When i read this particular post tomorrow i'll probably realise too late that it makes no sense, and it is really just the ramblings of a mentally exhausted mind.

Seeing that i plan on doing a quick 24 hour fast, and that i haven't slept a wink, i'm kinda thinking that going for a jog would be kind of idiotic. So instead, if i don't fall asleep by 6am i will pour myself a nice hot bubbly bath, and soak for an hour with 'How to kill a mockingbird'. At around 8am i'll pop into my mums for an espresso, and then hopefully (hopefully!!) i'll be able to sleep the day away and not worry too much about not eating anything.

Random thought - Two years ago my hair was half way down my back. I'm the type of person who gets bored extremely easily. So when i got bored with my hair, i promptly went to the hairdressers, made an appointment, and two days later i had all my hair cut off, all but 2 inches. It was the most freeing experience i have ever encountered. But obviously there's only so much you can do with 2 inches of hair, so within a few months i grew restless again and decided to grow it out again. It's now almost down to my shoulders. I was thinking how nice it would be to be able to jump out of the shower, with hair that goes down to my waist, and just let it air dry, and then either leaving it down or putting it up in a quick messy bun. No fuss and no need to straighten it like i have to do now (ginger hair that has a tendency to become half afro when there's no extra hair to weigh it down, is not a good look).

Blergh. My mind is everywhere and nowhere. It's been a long time since i've decided to fast. I'm not sure if i'm heading down "a dangerous road" again like i did when i was 15. And to be honest i'm scared of my thoughts about food and calories. But i'm also partly ecstatic that i'm gaining control again, which makes me slightly scared again.. And then i'm thinking about Australia, and when i plan to move there for a year. But that's a post for another time... perhaps tomorrow..

Anyway i want to end this post on a high note. I read a lovely quote the other day, which makes me feel just slightly brighter -

"Believing that everybody is beautiful, doesn't mean that you

have to find everyone beautiful. It means you believe

that everybody is beautiful to somebody."

M x