Doctors

I think i'm going to have to make an appointment with a doctor. Depression runs in my family and i feel as if what i'm thinking/feeling isn't normal. My eating is way out of hand; restrict, binge, restrict, binge etc.. Loneliness has surrounded me and i don't know how to escape it. And i'm not sure i want to. I'm on the verge of tears all the time. To the point of being the master of hiding my feelings behind an invisible mask whenever i'm in somebody's company. I feel lost, alone, and empty. I need help.