Habitual Eater

I solemnly swear that i am, a habitual eater. I didn't realize until today. I woke up at 8:00 and went downstairs to get my daily apple for breakfast, and there were no apples. I just stared blankly into the fridge. Perhaps hoping that if i concentrated enough, maybe an apple would materialize out of nowhere.. No such luck. What followed was a minor freak out, several 'rechecks' in the fridge and me walking around the house aimlessly. Well that was it. Day ruined. In my screwed up head, because i couldn't have the breakfast that i always have - no exception - i thought "fuck it". Binge mode!

As i was up early so my dad could go to hospital to have his heart checked - he had major heart surgery when i was 2 - i decided to pop into Waitrose, and get a '5 a day selection'. That was the start of the end. So, i may have forgotten a few things, but here's my list (and the calories i remember):

5 a day fruit selection - 224

Pom bear crisps - 97

Soy latte - 150

Shreddies with almond milk - 250

Jam sandwich - 150

Linda McCartney pie - 412

Vegetables - 50

Jam sandwich x2 - 300

McCoys - 200

Nuts - 200

Total: 2033

I'm a blimp.

I've also realized that me on 500 calories a day doesn't function. Especially since i'll be starting a job where i'm on my feet for 12 hours a day soon. So every other day i'll eat 500 calories, and on the in-between days i'll eat a 'normal' 1500 - 2000 cals. Hopefully this will also stop my body from going into fat storing starvation mode.

And lastly, hello to my second follower! I'm sorry i couldn't welcome you with a more upbeat post... But seeing i have another follower has lifted my mood considerably! Although i will give you a good inspirational quote.

M x

"It is during our darkest moments

that we must focus to

see the light."