I'm now 10st 6lbs. That's 146lbs. Holy shit, i've put on 20lbs in the last 18 months. I didn't even realize i had gained 20lbs until i started writing this. That is disgusting.What's more my brother and his Audrey Hepburn lookalike girlfriend are coming down tomorrow. She's spanish, wears no makeup and is like a size 6. She's basically stunning and leaves me feeling self conscious even when i'm at a lower weight. I need to be back to 126lbs for my 19th. Realistically that's easy to do even with a normal diet. So i'll eat up to 1000 calories everyday, but no more.
I've also decided to start sharing a few horses with an old school friend/acquaintance. She's super loud, stupid and all around annoying, but as long as i can have some one on one time with the horses i'll be happy. So i'm gonna be working 3 times a week, which should be about 18 hours. On the days i'm not working i'll spend my time down the stables riding. And not eating. How hard can eating only 1000 calories be, especially when i've literally become a fat lump. This is the last time i see 146lbs on the scale.
M x
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