We were on a family holiday, i told her she was being annoying - she was very drunk at the time i said this. And i'm not gonna lie, i said it with attitude. But the next night we had a little argument, she stormed out of the room and a few seconds later came back, and attacked me. My top was ripped off, my back was scratched and bleeding. My chest, face, arm, throat and leg were also bleeding. I couldn't walk properly because she had either kicked or punched me in the ribs. She sustained two bruises on her arm from me holding her down in self defense.
I had to take a week off work because i physically couldn't stand for longer than a few minutes. We weren't talking.
Long story short, she came over after a month and apologised. I accepted. But our relationship hasn't been the same. The other day - now two months later, she told me she only apologised to keep the piece in the family, not for me. She went on holiday when we were supposedly all made up and didn't tell me, although she told her ex husband, my dad. And within 2 weeks she started doing our little 'Cinema on Tuesday/Wednesday' tradition with someone else. She blames me for ruining the holiday with my little remark. She doesn't think that attacking me was any worse than me shooting a snide comment her way.
I'm emotionally numb. I grep up with her being slap happy but i'm an adult now, and you don't expect someone to do that to another adult. I don't feel anything, not towards her, not towards me, not towards anything. I'm spending Christmas alone, while my family gather at her house.
And i'm just lost. I need to escape. But i can't because i don't yet have enough money saved.
I need to get out of this toxic situation.
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